nothing lasts forever

for the first time, i actually have something to write about o.O weird, right?

so today, i got a message from my friend Beth, who I know from fanfiction.net (it's like a community for writing stories about different tv shows, books, etc). I've known her for over a month, and we got to be really good friends. but today, she basically told me she can't talk to me anymore for a while because her girlfriend is upset with us talking to each other. so she apologized and now i can't even talk to her anymore.

i know i shouldn't be this upset over someone who i never even met, but i genuinely like her as a friend, and i didn't think it was a big deal that we were friends. i told her everything - about my past, the depression, the cutting - and know i feel like i totally got played. she knows so much about me, and now i'm just being cut off. i feel dirty, like i did something wrong, even though i know i didn't. i'm trying to understand what the big deal was about our friendship, but i just don't see it. i feel like an idiot for being so confused and ashamed. i don't know what to do, and i feel like it's never going to be the same...

at the library?

well, i'm sitting at the library, bored out of my mind and wishing beth were online so i could talk...so freaking bored right now, there's nothing to do. nothing excited to say, really, so i won't bore you with the details. i'll post later when something is actually happening (like it ever does).

random question that i'm putting out there: are tongue studs slutty?

pilot

Well, I'm not quite sure how to begin this, but to see that this is my new blog...for those of you (i think three) who've followed my old one, Vega, here's the newest addition...nothing much is gonna be posted on this thing, just the random streams of consciousness that run through my head. BTW, to forewarn you, this is honest and uncensored...it's all going to be whatever's going on with me. But I'll change names, though if you really piss me off, I will post your real name. Just so you know :)

So about me? My real name is Emily. That's all you get - a name. I'll post a pic of myself soon. Though most of you have probably found me through facebook, so you'll know my name, my face, my age, my location...all that stalker stuff. To sum me up in a word would be...

Bipolar. Not that I am (as far as I know...?) but because I have many different personalities. You may know me as the loose, chill life of the party, or you may know me as the loner who sits in the corner of class listening to my iPod, or the girl who nearly killed herself over a girl who didn't give a damn, or the friend who'll always listen if you want to talk. I'm all of those, really...it's like two truths and a lie, but those are my truths. Get used to them - I'll elaborate when we get to them.

Well, I have to go for now - Lost is over, and I'm going to get offline for now, but I'll be back. Always am :\