for the first time, i actually have something to write about o.O weird, right?
so today, i got a message from my friend Beth, who I know from fanfiction.net (it's like a community for writing stories about different tv shows, books, etc). I've known her for over a month, and we got to be really good friends. but today, she basically told me she can't talk to me anymore for a while because her girlfriend is upset with us talking to each other. so she apologized and now i can't even talk to her anymore.
i know i shouldn't be this upset over someone who i never even met, but i genuinely like her as a friend, and i didn't think it was a big deal that we were friends. i told her everything - about my past, the depression, the cutting - and know i feel like i totally got played. she knows so much about me, and now i'm just being cut off. i feel dirty, like i did something wrong, even though i know i didn't. i'm trying to understand what the big deal was about our friendship, but i just don't see it. i feel like an idiot for being so confused and ashamed. i don't know what to do, and i feel like it's never going to be the same...
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